Smiling to herself as she sat at the table waiting for him to bring back the drinks. She relaxed back in her chair and gazed out of the window to the cold June day that caused the trees to dance wildy in the wind. She thought about what she had learned, who she once was and who she had now become. She now had a job that she loved, wonderful people whom she knew so true and felt confident within herself to reach for what she wanted.
She was a woman who made mistakes, who sometimes cried on a Monday morning or at night alone in bed. She was a woman who often became bored with her life and found it hard to get up for work. She was a woman who more often than not had a bad hair day, who looked in the mirror and wondered why she couldn't just drag herself to the gym; she was a woman who sometimes questioned what reason had she to live on this planet. She was a woman who sometimes just got things wrong.
On the other hand, she was a woman with a million happy memories, who knew what it was like to experience true love and who was ready to experience more life, more love and make new memories. Whether it happened in ten months or ten years, she would just obey the final message. Whatever lay ahead, she knew she would open her heart and follow where it led her.
Today is one of the depression days where I find myself locked up in the room and immobile for hours again. I cry for a while, stopped and felt okay, lit up a cigarette and then cry again. I don't know what triggered the sadness this time. Probably the WhiteLink receipt which I happened to fumble on or lil' Chloe's repeated callings for 'papa' when she accidentally fumbled on our photos as well.
But what I'm sure of is, I really miss you a lot.
If you're still out there listening, 只要你可以永远开心,我会情愿渐渐被忘记。