Smiling to herself as she sat at the table waiting for him to bring back the drinks. She relaxed back in her chair and gazed out of the window to the cold June day that caused the trees to dance wildy in the wind. She thought about what she had learned, who she once was and who she had now become. She now had a job that she loved, wonderful people whom she knew so true and felt confident within herself to reach for what she wanted.
She was a woman who made mistakes, who sometimes cried on a Monday morning or at night alone in bed. She was a woman who often became bored with her life and found it hard to get up for work. She was a woman who more often than not had a bad hair day, who looked in the mirror and wondered why she couldn't just drag herself to the gym; she was a woman who sometimes questioned what reason had she to live on this planet. She was a woman who sometimes just got things wrong.
On the other hand, she was a woman with a million happy memories, who knew what it was like to experience true love and who was ready to experience more life, more love and make new memories. Whether it happened in ten months or ten years, she would just obey the final message. Whatever lay ahead, she knew she would open her heart and follow where it led her.
Been working and boozing 7days a week. Bo bian~ I wanna go Los Angeles and Las Vegas!!!
I guess I'm better off alone, without you. I'm happier and free - I'm no longer dependent on someone and my heartbreaks and tears weren't decided by you, or anyone else, anymore. I'm back on track, the invulnerable me like how I was. I like it this way. But I just can't seem to make myself tell you that. I really can't bear to be cruel and hurt your feelings, after so long. And I'm wondering how could you have done the same thing and threw me behind crying back then.
Am currently hooked onto Katy Perry's Thinking Of You. :)
Saturday, April 24, 2010
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My precious Chloe's first 2 teeth are popping outttt!!! ^^
Tuesday, April 20, 2010
If You're Not The One - Daniel Bedingfield
I'm officially fucking, fucking, fucking disgusted from you. We could have just separate and lead our own lives amicably, but you just have to make things ugly.
Why do you have to pester me, asking me back when your heart's not even in this fucking marriage anymore? Why do you have to make the effort to lie when I can't even be bothered in the first place?
If you’re not the one then why does my soul feel glad today? If you’re not the one then why does my hand fit yours this way? If you are not mine then why does your heart return my call If you are not mine would I have the strength to stand at all
I never know what the future brings But I know you are here with me now We’ll make it through And I hope you are the one I share my life with
I don’t want to run away but I can’t take it, I don’t understand If I’m not made for you then why does my heart tell me that I am? Is there any way that I can stay in your arms?
If I don’t need you then why am I crying on my bed? If I don’t need you then why does your name resound in my head? If you’re not for me then why does this distance maim my life? If you’re not for me then why do I dream of you as my wife?
I don’t know why you’re so far away But I know that this much is true We’ll make it through And I hope you are the one I share my life with And I wish that you could be the one I die with And I pray in you’re the one I build my home with I hope I love you all my life
‘Cause I miss you, body and soul so strong that it takes my breath away And I breathe you into my heart and pray for the strength to stand today ‘ Cause I love you, whether it’s wrong or right And though I can’t be with you tonight And know my heart is by your side
You said you feel this song is for me. Feel my fucking arse.
I want no more wild boozing; I want no more Kaykay. I wanna work hard and live well for Chloe. Sooooo, I'm going for an interview at 10am tomorrow. :)
And that bloody interview is at Tuas. What time must I freaking get up then? 7.30am? Wthhhhh~ Usually my everyday's 7.30am, I'm still outside having supper after clubs and boozes can!? Okay. I didn't have them; I just watch my friends and slurp on their drinks. Cos I'm usually too drunk to chomp away. :D
I'll be good and stay home and slap on an eye mask tonight. Finally a day I get to spend with myself. And just myself. :)