Smiling to herself as she sat at the table waiting for him to bring back the drinks. She relaxed back in her chair and gazed out of the window to the cold June day that caused the trees to dance wildy in the wind. She thought about what she had learned, who she once was and who she had now become. She now had a job that she loved, wonderful people whom she knew so true and felt confident within herself to reach for what she wanted.
She was a woman who made mistakes, who sometimes cried on a Monday morning or at night alone in bed. She was a woman who often became bored with her life and found it hard to get up for work. She was a woman who more often than not had a bad hair day, who looked in the mirror and wondered why she couldn't just drag herself to the gym; she was a woman who sometimes questioned what reason had she to live on this planet. She was a woman who sometimes just got things wrong.
On the other hand, she was a woman with a million happy memories, who knew what it was like to experience true love and who was ready to experience more life, more love and make new memories. Whether it happened in ten months or ten years, she would just obey the final message. Whatever lay ahead, she knew she would open her heart and follow where it led her.
Yes, I'm bloody sick for the 2nd time in a month. Those sleep-only-in-the-afternoon-then-wake-up-at-8pm-and-get-to-work-for-some-alcohol routine is taking its toll on me, I pretty much guess.
I can't even go near Chloe now that she's back from her weekend-father's-place. :(
I've been craving for the laksa steamboat for the last few weeks and I've yet to have it. :(
Planning a short KL trip with 罗小姐. And just the two of us. :)
It's 5.41am now, and I can't get any sleep as I've been sleeping and waking and sleeping and waking and sleeping and waking and sleeping and waking and... DIAM~ ... ever since 3pm till 3am. So I'm gonna go rummage my kitchen for some food now, just for the sake of filling my tummy and preventing my stick body from going anywhere stick-ier (you know what I mean). I can't taste ANYTHING now anyway; I can't even taste if the glass of martell is gao gao or un-gao gao. So don't accuse me if I get drunk in 2hours.
Phua neh nehhhhh~
Wednesday, March 17, 2010
I want you to move on
You flooded my inbox with your sms-es last night, which you will never do back when we were together.
If god gave me a wish i'll say i wan linda to be by my side forever
Was that the case from the beginning?
I used to always swear to myself I'll leave you for good one day and make you regret all of these shits whenever you threw me behind crying; and I never did because I loved you too much to let go. Until more than 2 years later, I accumulated all the courage I could find and slowly distant my heart from you.
I've accomplished something I never thought I could ever do for the rest of my life. Now that I did it, I'm not at all proud of it.
What's left lingering around, are bouts of bitterness.
Looking at you makes it harder, But I know that you'll find another. I want you to move on.
Tuesday, March 09, 2010
:)
Logged in to msn as usual and the usual window popped out saying I received messages while I was offline.
david said: (3.23pm)
i miss u .............
I stoned for 2 minutes.
Then realised we haven't been talking over msn for like donkey years; I clicked the "View your entire conversation history with this contact"
I read, I laughed, I smiled.
Tuned in Already Gone and tapped the "X" button on the top right hand corner.
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Off to doll up myself and head down to boatquay to meet my emoqueen for tonight, Miss Haze Loh.
P.S.: Feel so dumb to head down to UP on my off days. -___-