Smiling to herself as she sat at the table waiting for him to bring back the drinks. She relaxed back in her chair and gazed out of the window to the cold June day that caused the trees to dance wildy in the wind. She thought about what she had learned, who she once was and who she had now become. She now had a job that she loved, wonderful people whom she knew so true and felt confident within herself to reach for what she wanted.
She was a woman who made mistakes, who sometimes cried on a Monday morning or at night alone in bed. She was a woman who often became bored with her life and found it hard to get up for work. She was a woman who more often than not had a bad hair day, who looked in the mirror and wondered why she couldn't just drag herself to the gym; she was a woman who sometimes questioned what reason had she to live on this planet. She was a woman who sometimes just got things wrong.
On the other hand, she was a woman with a million happy memories, who knew what it was like to experience true love and who was ready to experience more life, more love and make new memories. Whether it happened in ten months or ten years, she would just obey the final message. Whatever lay ahead, she knew she would open her heart and follow where it led her.
My heart, Chloe, had just subside from her fever. Just watching her sound asleep is aching me. :(
Had a rather major fight with DT. I kept quiet throughout when you were holling away because nothing I say will do any help. Whenever I talked to you about our problems and so, you were unhappy and arguments arise; so what for you keep wanting me to talk when I don't?
At one point in one of our arguments, you told me not to care about your business and just tell you how much I need; now you scream and shout at me for not giving a damn to you, about your feelings, stress and everything. NOW, exactly what the fuck do you want?
It was just yesterday you said "我要跟你白头偕老"; the sweetness was still lingering inside my heart. Yet today our marriage's going for the down-turn.
Tuesday, August 25, 2009
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Fuck, (chloe says mommy shouldn't spat vulgarities, yet again) you guys don't know hooooooowwwwwww muuuuucccchhhhhhh I wish to get my...
- Laptop - Cellphone - Driving license
I'm going crazy soon, just thinking about these 3 things all day, even when I shit.
Sighhhhh....
Friday, August 14, 2009
My baby sis's 6!
Happy 6th Birthday to my ever dearest thou mischievous lil' sister, Bibi! I can always remember the first day I carried you back home, adding more laughters, happiness and irreplaceable precious memories to our warm family.
You're ever my baby sis, regardless 6, 16 or 60.
* Thou you won't even be reading this (Other than PSP, PlayStation, cellphone, TV and DVD, I can't remember what other electronics you know how to switch on AND other than words less than 8 alphabets that you know how to read), I still hope you know your big sister's love will never subside, even after precious Chloe arrived.
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"Good ol' days", they always say.
How much I would exchange just to bring me back to those days, even if it's just for a day.
...
Sometimes, you made me feel guilty for thinking this way. Yet other times, you made me feel I have to, for Chloe and myself.
It's hurting, Dear...
Sighhhh
I'm banning black coffee for life. Haven't been to bed for over 36hours and yet I can't get to sleep; I under-estimated its super power. Nehneh~
My personal desires aside, I'm still broke. Yet I don't see any ideal job in my way in the near future possible. :( Definitely not excuses; I seriously wanna quit all these Katong trips. Once occassionally doesn't sound so bad; but definitely not when it's turning my life upside down and, worse still, depriving my time with my precious Poohpooh, and not forgetting... straining our relationship.
On my way, on my way!! Go, go, GO! (All these self-talkings are making me going bonkers)
* Chloe's pictures still yet to be uploaded.
Wednesday, August 12, 2009
Zzz
Chloe Tan's getting lovelier and pooh-ier each day. However, I haven't upload her pics.