Smiling to herself as she sat at the table waiting for him to bring back the drinks. She relaxed back in her chair and gazed out of the window to the cold June day that caused the trees to dance wildy in the wind. She thought about what she had learned, who she once was and who she had now become. She now had a job that she loved, wonderful people whom she knew so true and felt confident within herself to reach for what she wanted.
She was a woman who made mistakes, who sometimes cried on a Monday morning or at night alone in bed. She was a woman who often became bored with her life and found it hard to get up for work. She was a woman who more often than not had a bad hair day, who looked in the mirror and wondered why she couldn't just drag herself to the gym; she was a woman who sometimes questioned what reason had she to live on this planet. She was a woman who sometimes just got things wrong.
On the other hand, she was a woman with a million happy memories, who knew what it was like to experience true love and who was ready to experience more life, more love and make new memories. Whether it happened in ten months or ten years, she would just obey the final message. Whatever lay ahead, she knew she would open her heart and follow where it led her.
Has been quite a while since I blogged. Things changed; not tremendously, but dramatically.
- I left Illuzion, after coming to 3years, on the 31st Oct.
I didn't see it coming. Anyway, DT didn't like it and he's right, I couldn't stay on for long - don't even mention forever.
- We're having a fight, once again, after quite some time.
Instead of the usual screaming-our-heads-off fight, it was a rather calming and quiet one. Maybe the way we argue doesn't matter; the thing that matter was.. are our hearts even in the argument? Or rather we just quarrel for the sake of quarrelling Or even, do we still trust this relationship. I can't bring myself nor could I think anymore. It's a void with a lingering bout of heartaches and chills.
I have way many other more stuffs to think and settle. I need a life, and at the same time, I need a break.. emotionally.