Smiling to herself as she sat at the table waiting for him to bring back the drinks. She relaxed back in her chair and gazed out of the window to the cold June day that caused the trees to dance wildy in the wind. She thought about what she had learned, who she once was and who she had now become. She now had a job that she loved, wonderful people whom she knew so true and felt confident within herself to reach for what she wanted.
She was a woman who made mistakes, who sometimes cried on a Monday morning or at night alone in bed. She was a woman who often became bored with her life and found it hard to get up for work. She was a woman who more often than not had a bad hair day, who looked in the mirror and wondered why she couldn't just drag herself to the gym; she was a woman who sometimes questioned what reason had she to live on this planet. She was a woman who sometimes just got things wrong.
On the other hand, she was a woman with a million happy memories, who knew what it was like to experience true love and who was ready to experience more life, more love and make new memories. Whether it happened in ten months or ten years, she would just obey the final message. Whatever lay ahead, she knew she would open her heart and follow where it led her.
It's TGIF, and finally I've got my off after god-knows-how-long.
Tuesday, August 14, 2007
Irritants
Where: Outside Illuzion When: Last night What: Discussion Why: Boliao How: Joined me and Wendy for smoking
*mid-halfway of wendy and my conversation* IC (IlluzionCustomer): "Wah... If she's more gentle, then swee liao lah." Wendy: "Hurhur. No leh, she's only loud and violent when she's drunk." *me -_-"* IC: "No leh. She's loud on usual, but extremely louder when she's drunk." *me -____-"* IC: "Nonono... She's loud to boys but soft togirls." Wendy: "Hurhurhur." IC: "you 玩豆腐(tofu) one huh?" Wendy: "Hurhurhurhur." me: "simi 玩豆腐?" Wendy: "Don't know leh." me: "Don't know, you still laugh." Wendy: "Wonderful, huh?" me: "...." IC: "玩豆腐 you all don't know? lesbian lah." Wendy and me: "......."
It's definitely not the first time when someone comes up to me, telling me how perfect I will be if I'm a bit more demure and girly, etc etc.
Sometimes I even have violent people telling me I'm violent. What the hell? It's like I kena point finger for being stupid by a pig. Eh? Wait. I remember reading about pigs that they are actually smart creatures the last time I went to the zoo with Jason, BB and PP.
Okay, never mind about that. You get my point.
It's like people telling you if your armpit hair is pink in colour, it will be sexier (don't tell me you're gonna dye it, freako). I mean, that's just me lah.
Irritating.
Monday, August 13, 2007
Bibi is My Retard
My mom cheated me to bring Bibi (BB) and Pongpong (PP) out by telling me they are going to a some sort of funeral at 7-8plus at night.
I must say I don't really mind bringing 'em out with me, but why must she always inform me stuffs like that at the very last min, huh? And I've gotta cancel all my stuffs.
If I kpkb and reject her, she will go like "what? you businesswoman, very busy is it?" or "wings hard, can fly already hor?" etc. Ridiculous.
Okay, don't spoil her wonderwoman reputation. Anyway, I happened to promise AlanChong I would go out with him that night. And plus the thing that he already took leave from work. So I can't find enough reason to dua him.
My mom followed me downstairs to checkout this lad who is bringing 3/4 of her monkeys' population out. And I excused myself to the entrance of the carpark by telling her AlanC. won't be this soon, and that I'm bringing them elsewhere first. As usual, she tailed me. Funny thing is, she will hide in corners, like behind the trees.
I don't know did she over-estimated the tree or under-estimated her size.
Point is, she deemed every of my friends as evil devils, except for oeynala.
Wth.
Nevermind, let's move on.
We went to Bugis for SakaeSushi and then over to AlanC.'s pub at Duxton to pray&burn etc for the hungry ghost festival. It was boring, but exciting for BB I tell you. I nua-ed (when I say nua, I mean really nuuaaa) inside the car from 11pm to coming to 1am. Don't ask me where I gathered all those patience, I'm wondering why myself.
Oh, I said it was exciting for Bibi because she stayed hyper and awake all the while, with the bartenders and managers (NOTE: all males) all entertaining her.
Especially Kuku Korkor (she called him).
I was glad, in fact, for him to bring BB out of the car, so she could stop pestering me on how to jump over the monsters in the game in my cellphone. It was until that two idiots hop into the car and began squabbling.
I swear I couldn't tahan the two idiots squabbling and I was transparent when I asked everybody to shut up.
I realised I don't wanna continue anymore and because my mom's cooking is tempting me.
Saturday, August 11, 2007
Tioman Trip During March '07
- Very short summary of the trip, excluding many other more pictures and videos. - Takes quite some time to load. - Erase the fugly images of mine after clip ends. - Oh, and on your speakers.
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Random
(Okay, I don't care if there's no one left bio-ing my blog.) You know, I can't blog freely like no one's watching. So, it's always the mundane stuffs.
How long have I not have a hangover on Saturdays? -Unknown. Yes, it's strange I'm not suffering from headaches, fatigues, grogginesses, etc today. People who talk to me on my hangover days will realise that I response to them 3secs or more later or, I'm still half-drunk (even if it had already been 24hours ever since the last drop of alcohol). I'm not kidding.
I don't know when and where was this pic taken but according to the photographer, it was when I was still at Xchange, which is quite some time back. The liquid was ... ugghh ... judging by my expression.
Oh yah, regarding National Day, it was boring. Instead, National Day EVE was splendid (almost) or rather happening (kind of drunk, as usual). Fly is getting boring. (I noticed I've been mentioning 'boring', 'tired' etc a tad too often lately)
I forgot what's her name, but she requested a photo at Illuzion. So there.
My mom's brainpower is going on the loose for godknowswhy these days. One moment, she can go cat&bitefighting with my sis. And then she can shoot me with some unknown language the next. Like just now I was talking to my sis about faux lashes.
me: "Eh, I just realised if you use eyelash curler kiap your faux eyelashes, they will curl like cb mor, and the effect lasts for a long period sial!" jess: "I don't want them to curl." me: "-.- knn. then you put faux lashes for what? cut off your real lashes lah." *mom interrupts loudly*: "#$@^!#$-1 .... 钱@$%^!*@ 啦 ... @#7%8&*#!" *I stared at her for 3sec speechless* me: "what talking you?" mom: "talk 你lah!"
Anyway, I watched the movie clip Edwin and Yaoping made for me regarding the Tioman Trip on March, and it was really sweet. I'm uploading it and if blogspot allow me, I will upload it later because it's taking its own sweet time as the file is 101MB++.
Work tonight...
Wednesday, August 01, 2007
Aug
Point 1: My blog is starting to transform back into the tiring and boring one because the deadening effect is activating my life because I shut off my social life almost completely (except for the weekends at Illuzion) because I'm starting to get really jaded, both physically and mentally because my weekdays are occupied with school and my weekends are occupied with Illuzion and not forgetting the fear I have every night.
So people, do not get disheartened if I reject your offers for more than once or twice, by feeling that I'm discriminating you or what.
Point 2:
My dad's birthday is in 3days' time, and I haven't get his pressies. My mom got him boxers from HushPuppies. -_-"
........
Okay, I'm stuck -- I don't know what else to say now and I'm itching like hell. So TTFN: TaTa For Now.