Smiling to herself as she sat at the table waiting for him to bring back the drinks. She relaxed back in her chair and gazed out of the window to the cold June day that caused the trees to dance wildy in the wind. She thought about what she had learned, who she once was and who she had now become. She now had a job that she loved, wonderful people whom she knew so true and felt confident within herself to reach for what she wanted.
She was a woman who made mistakes, who sometimes cried on a Monday morning or at night alone in bed. She was a woman who often became bored with her life and found it hard to get up for work. She was a woman who more often than not had a bad hair day, who looked in the mirror and wondered why she couldn't just drag herself to the gym; she was a woman who sometimes questioned what reason had she to live on this planet. She was a woman who sometimes just got things wrong.
On the other hand, she was a woman with a million happy memories, who knew what it was like to experience true love and who was ready to experience more life, more love and make new memories. Whether it happened in ten months or ten years, she would just obey the final message. Whatever lay ahead, she knew she would open her heart and follow where it led her.
Okay, it's 7.00am now. My head's detonating anytime. I deprive from my beauty sleep. I just came back from Delta Ave. I had a girl-to-girl;heart-to-heart talk with darling the previous night. It has been some time I could talk without any secrecy to hide; it was a rather emo night, I guess. I promised to be invulnerable and strong from any hurts, didn't I?
After 'that' incident 2months ago, I realised my hold for boozes are aggravating. @#$!&*#%... My coming-to-1year of practically daily boozing-training led to naught. What the fuck. I'm shady about living over the age of 30. I think I need to visit Mr. Handsome Doc. soon.
My unexampled wish now: more than a hundred people coming to my funeral and bow yieldingly to my photo. Ha.(someone take my what's-that-funeral-photo-called)
Seriously speaking, I realised I don't wish to have a extortionate funeral after I witnessed my grandpa's.
C'mon, life ain't that bad. After all, I don't believe in after life. I conceive of every person having only one life - so, make the best out of it.